STARVE into an Abundant Lyphe...

Great Day Belovedz,


Today's dialogue is a very, very intense and difficult progression for me personally.
The growing pain of this particular part of SELF is painful...


Today...I would like to identify the deaths that must occur within us in order for us to live an Abundant Lyphe.


Not abundance in "Things"...but an Abundance of our Best Self.


In order to obtain a degree of proficiency toward Abundance...we've got to starve the cycles of destruction within ourselves and our lives...


Merriam-Webster defines Starve as: to want or need something very much


Throughout the course of my existence...I've struggled with maintaining a will...a want...a drive to live.
I was in total agreement with whatever was ruling inside that said my loved ones and I were better off if I were in a grave.
PERIOD.


I was satisfied with it.
I had accepted it.
I'd conditioned myself to stay prepared for that last "moment".
When life wouldn't take me out...I tried to take me out...
But LYPHE...Kept winning...


The last time I suffered with this particular enemy...I stopped eating.
Although I did not stop eating "on purpose" my lack of wanting to exist manifested in a total loss of appetite..


*Honest Zone*
Okay Guys...FOOD IS MY B#T$H...hands DOWN!!!
I LOVE FOOD...I Love the aroma...I Love the taste...I Love the textures...I Love to cook...I Love to feed people...
FOOD GLORIOUS FOOD...Don't touch my plate if YOU want to live...FOOD!!!!


So...lost in the pit of self...I was being told by those around me what was happening...but couldn't really see it for myself...


Every time I looked in the mirror I was a whopping 160-180 lbs...I wasn't loosing weight so rapidly that  I saw a problem...neither did I entertain the look of concern on my loved ones faces...


I was so engaged with the grave...I wasn't interested in what was still alive...ME...Lyphe...I was STILL Alive...but I was ready to die...


So when the scale finally reached an unhealthy 102lbs and I'd remembered the pleas of my children to eat....it was in those moments...I saw my Lyphe fading but wasn't yet gone from view...my loved ones had been screaming LIVE while silently my Lyphe LOVE Light Energy was dimming...and I was saying...no...die.


I was TIRED of hurting
I was TIRED of living in fear
I was TIRED of physical pain
I was TIRED of the stress and strain
I was TIRED of failing
I was TIRED.


But Lyphe was still flowing through my shrunken veins...


So I had to accept death wasn't my decision to make (obviously)...and I started turning my Lyphe Existence around so I could begin to received the Abundance of my Lyphe.


Well sister Lyphe...how did you even begin the process...


First...I opened up a real yet difficult dialogue between The Universal Power Source and Self.
I returned the power (I NEVER had) over my existence to The Creator Source.


Then...I started STARVING myself
STARVING myself of not waking everyday with gratitude
STARVING myself of the negative picture I was painting of my Beautiful Lyphe
STARVING myself of lies that I'm unworthy...undeserving...of the BEST Lyphe The Universe offered me.
STARVING my piss poor self image...in and out the mirror
STARVING myself of negative speech and ideologies
STARVING myself of miserable people who loved being in my miserable company
STARVING myself of  the defeatist and quitter attitude
STARVING myself  from ingesting my neighbor's thoughts,  feeling, words, actions of Just Wrong...
STARVING myself of atmospheric poisons
STARVING myself of hiding the pain instead of exercising it


And when I began flushing my Lyphez System...and started "eating" right...


I fed myself by giving Gratitude for the Grace and Mercy of my Creator Source
I fed myself the TRUTH of who and WHOs I AM
I fed myself patience with my human frailty
I fed myself worthiness
I fed myself meditation
I fed myself positivity
I fed myself LOVE
I fed myself the joys as well as the pains
I fed myself the UTMOST Respect for My SELF
I fed myself the right to dance...even in the rain
I fed myself hope
I fed myself LYPHE
I fed myself good speech
I fed myself clean and clear space


So that I could today... feed You (go figure).


I am Still Alive...to feed you LOVE
I am Still Alive...to feed you peace
I am Still Alive...to feed you support
I am Still Alive...to share my story in hopes you'll never have to eat from that platter of pain
I am Still Alive...to remind myself and you of just how Phenomenal, Wonderful, Majestic we Already Are...Flaws & All...no excuses nor exceptions.


*Honest Zone*
At this very second...I'm Starving and Eating simultaneously...working on SELF inside out...every day I learn something new about myself...negative things must be starved...and positive things must be fed.


You are NEVER alone...EVER...
Someone understands...I Understand...


My very BEST Friend told me...
"There's NOTHING...you, me and The Creator Source cannot get through together"...
He planted an Agape LOVE seedling inside of me...so that I could grow into an Abundant LOVE & Light Lyphe FORCE...


Hoping you're able to eat the "fruits" of my LOVE and Light through darkness...in time you'll do the same for your neighbor...


The WORLD is waiting on us to STARVE ourselves into an Abundant LOVE & Light Lyphe FORCE.
#leggo


I LOVE YOU. But The Universal Energy Source LOVES us BEST. So LOVE you MORE.